talk is cheap, I've always proclaimed the love I have for singing, but yet, what am I doing to move myself closer to what I really want to do? it's kinda saddening, it's kinda humiliating, when I see people like you and me perform up on stage, going for competitions, working so hard to keep themselves in the competition, working so hard to KEEP THEIR DREAMS ALIVE... what have I done? I totally abhored myself when I asked myself that question, because I'm ashamed of myself, for I'm only talk without actions...
why am I so afraid to even take that first step when I'm so brave in chasing my dreams back then? Perhaps, I've grown in my thinking, perhaps, reality sank it... because reality tells me that it takes more than a sincere pair of voice to perform, it takes more than hard work to be recognized... it's the whole package, and I know, I'm no where near the "package" people want...
so I guess, till I'm confident enough about myself, I'll stop talking about my dreams, for I fear people might mock me...
does anyone out there know how I'm truly feeling right now?
