I started to ponder about my decision to leave badminton again yesterday, and I guess, I didn't make the wrong decision after all... Yes, I have more free time for myself now, I can do more things in a day like studying and doing fyp, but on the flip side, I do feel kinda empty now that I reach home early every day, without trainings and late night supper with my team mates, maybe feeling kinda detached from the sports? but I'm sure I'll get used to it in a matter of time...
Despite my reasons for feeling lost, I've no intentions of going back to the IG already, going back for training this week helped me confirm that my decision was a right one... How can we improve if almost everyone's attitude towards training is so flippant, taking things in their own hands and always singing the opposite tune of the coach? it seriously made me wonder why they are even in the IG... they keep claiming they love badminton, but I simply can't tell from their actions... coach is also biased shit, showing favouritism to 2 team mates so blatantly... teacher's pet only no need to do physical training? what nonsense is that?! cao geng shit! just a superficial bunch of people I guess =/ thankfully, Darryl and honey ended my training on a good note.. It was simply a waste of time yesterday as the seniors didn't even do training, simply playing games only.. so I decided to join the juniors, and Darryl was nice to cheer me on :) thankfully there's honey in the IG too, some one decent I can talk too and communicate with.... I think I'm just on different frequency with the rest =/ they claim of being afraid that their position in the team will be threatened, but I see none of them working hard to fend for their places..
oh well, at the end of the day, its just empty talk=/
